1/5/05 There was this girl lying on her stomach. She had been sliced open from shoulder to shoulder and so many worms were crawling out of her and out of her face. She was quite clearly dead. I said goodbye to my friends as if it were the last thing I’d ever say, or the last thing they’d ever hear. Then they all got on a bus and left, and I walked by a bunch of creepy houses.


1/19/05 At one point, I was in a kitchen and there was this garbage disposal. Every third thing that went into it got crushed. This kid Brian and his girlfriend were there, and Brian got crushed and there was a giant cube of refuse in the middle of the room and you could see chunks of his legs. Then I was standing in a bathroom with this olive skinned man, and I didn’t trust him, but he started singing this beautiful song, which I think may have been “Everloving” by Moby, except he was singing it and I’m not sure how. Once he sang, he seemed so familiar, but I still don’t know who he was or what he represented. I got very close to him and we danced very slowly. While we danced, I asked, “What are we going to do?” and he asked, “Does it really matter?” and he spun me, and I was dancing alone and everything, including myself, became golden and shimmery.


1/21/05 We were in this place. Sort of a courtyard. There were a pool and a fountain that looked very similar. Just a roundish, large tub of water with a stream of water pouring into it. You were supposed to go in that one to wash the sin from you. My dog jumped in there repeatedly, sinking 20 feet or so to the bottom and leaping back out again. Eventually I climbed into the pool. The walls of it were completely covered in crosswords. A few were answered. One answer was “Sheena.”
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The school was taking our pictures. While I was waiting for my turn, I looked at past photos and most were just pictures of glitter. The others were people on backgrounds of glitter. The lady taking our pictures was using my camera. She didn’t wait until I was ready and just took my photo and rushed me along. There was no flash.
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There were two super heroes in the typical garb. I don’t remember much of them. One said, “Your parents know about you? Mine do not. You have them; I have nobody.”, and the other said, “But you don’t understand. I don’t *like* my parents, and the first one did something. Then it flashes to a comic book where there is no color except for the red and white blocked background.


2/2/05 I had red pants instead of red hair. They were wonderful pants and everybody complimented me on them.
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My dream music class was all leaving for France, but they wouldn’t let me go because I didn’t fill out the form.
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I was walking down Lake Shore Drive, and had my camera. It switched between spring and winter. Mattina was playing on a snow mound, and Ryan comes up to her and she says to nobody in particular, “I suppose I have to take care of my little whore child.”, and Ryan seemed like a child. Then Mattina was gone and Ryan and I were standing on a snow mound on a small street near my house. Everything around us was a movie he made and it made all the vague statements he’s made completely clear, and for the first time, I knew him completely and I cried, because it was amazing what I didn’t know.


2/2/05 Alisha, Hannah and me were in the nonexistent movie theater in our school. This kid with short, red, curly hair came in and danced with his girlfriend in front of the screen.
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A group of kids kept coming into my classes and shooting things. They came into Mr. Rob’s class, and you could tell that he was in on it because he didn’t panic and didn’t try to stop the kids. Ryan was angry at me for something and stormed away from me as we walked down the hall. He was wearing a multicolored tuxedo that shined like polished metal.


2/14/05 My mom and I were in my livingroom at 2:30 in the morning and we heard loud orchestra music and applause coming from down the street, so we went to see if there was a musical playing.
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I was walking through the fairgrounds and all the game stands were up but it was abandoned and there were large stuffed pink elephants, and I wanted to steal one but there were cameras that followed me as I moved. I also went into the bathroom for black people because there were separate bathrooms and a rumble started because I was in there, and it wasn’t really a bathroom. It was a big garage. I assured this burly man that everything was okay, and everything was okay.


11/13/2007 Rob guided me into his house, which was a fictional version. I was singing Strawberry Fields Forever. He was explaining to be something about how the skies were very gray in strawberry fields. We went up this flight of stairs on the way to his room. At the top of the stairs I saw Ryan. I remember thinking that I was glad to have Rob. Once we were in his room, we started kissing on the bed with Rob on top mof me. People kept coming in and out. One of those people was Matt. I called out to him but he didn't hear me and I didn't care. I just kept kissing Rob.


3/19/2008 We were being chased by these goblins who were using bazookas and various other guns. We ended up hiding in a small hut where rotting bodies were hanging from the ceiling. Something about the bodies kept the goblins from seeing us.


3/23/2008 I drank delicious liquor from India out of a pink glass genie bottle.


10/19/2008 We were driving in the backseat of a truck or van of some sort. My door wouldn't close so I made Ron and Gary stop so I could move. Warren Beatty switched seats with me.

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Gary and I were sitting in the open sort of cooler at a supermarket trying to get a lap dance. Nobody came over so we went in the back to find the Dane. He was back there in the dark at the seafood counter. He shouted that he was the Dane of the Ladies.


3/29/2009 I was taking a bath with Ryan because we both needed to and were comfortable enough to do so. We were at opposite ends of the tub facing each other. He stood up to wash his body and I washed my hair. When I dipped back to rinse my hair, he accidentally pushed and held me under the water with his foot. I grabbed onto his leg to alert him to this. As I started to blackout, he realized what he was doing and he scooped me up and apologized and looked terrified.



5/2/2009 Me and some others were trying to shoot our way out of a building. I was shooting this one guy in the face but the bullets were very small so they were just sort of chipping away at his face. I ended up getting shot too much and died, but I wondered if they would revive me at the hospital.

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I think it was Cory R. She built this fantastic temple out of gold coins or yellow bottle caps or something else. Me and Kim K. leaped onto it and then we were slow motion falling onto it the pile of whatever it was and I was topless and he felt me up.


6/4/2009 Gary and I were driving home from somewhere and it was winter. I was yelling at him to be careful. We were giving Johnny K. a ride and he said there was a toga party. We went there and it was at the bar. I went to my grandma's office area with Johnny but things were different. There were couch. Kevin (I assume S.) was there and so we were staying. I didn't see Kevin, but Mike Davis was there. I sat down directly across from Derek D. and he asked me if I'd give him a blowjob, and I made an "uh, what?" face and he mouthed the word "please." I looked over to the ladies room behind me and looked back at him and shrugged as if to say "in there?" and he said "no, outside."